there are many words unsaid, unraveled words, telling me, telling me
something—something I do not understand, do not wish toknow.
we have left many words unspoken.
for years we have spoken
almost no words at all. yet
there are too many words to speak of
is this my fault. am I the reason.
—do not say the words—
holding this burden has nearly drowned me.
I did not wish to carry this weight.
a weight I did not know
how to let go of. a lie I could not believe.
we haven’t spoken in too long, so distant
a memory are the words we spoke.
tell me what it was like to let go, unless you’ve been holding on.
have you been holding on?
because I have. no one
made me. no one said
I had to.
mostly, no one knew I was still clinging—I didn’t even know
fully, what it was I held.
—do not lie to me—
is this irreparable. can I…
—please do not answer—
there are, I fear,
too many words left